A few years back I had taken up a hand writing analysis course out of sheer curiosity. I didn't discover anything I didn't know about myself, just came face to face with a lot of things I already knew but wasn't ready to acknowledge.
Of the things I do acknowledge, is my habit of being acutely planned, meticulous and future-oriented. But the last few months have been such that I don't plan anymore and I don't intend to be meticulous either. For I have seen plans go haywire, schedules falling apart and frankly I don't think I want to see that happen once more.
But being true to who I am and have been I still look forward to the future but this time with trepidation and a whole lot of cynicism.